Thursday, June 30, 2011
As the time slowly ticks by until I have my sweet baby in my arms my emotions have become a huge jumble! As of this morning I was purely excited to drop of my Littles at grandma’s house tonight and go to have Miss Leena Noël in the morning. Now I am feeling a little overwhelmed at the thought that as this time passes the end is growing near to a huge chapter in my life. I have spent more of my adult life pregnant then not. This may be our last baby and the thought of never being pregnant again makes me sad. I love the bond that I have with that sweet little spirit who is still so close to our Heavenly Father. I feel all of their little wiggles and hiccups before anyone else. I love that connection. There is nothing quite like it on earth. Today I have taken a little bit of time with each of little boys snuggling on the couch. I thought about the time that I spent bonding with them, which seems like just a few months ago but really it’s been years. I will never forget how special this time has been for me. There is such a different feeling knowing that I have a little girl waiting to come and be a part of our family. Its such a surreal feeling to know this could be the end. I am still very excited for tomorrow to come but I am really trying to enjoy my last few hours of having a tiny little life inside on me.