Thursday, June 30, 2011

As the time slowly ticks by until I have my sweet baby in my arms my emotions have become a huge jumble! As of this morning I was purely excited to drop of my Littles at grandma’s house tonight and go to have Miss Leena Noël in the morning. Now I am feeling a little overwhelmed at the thought that as this time passes the end is growing near to a huge chapter in my life. I have spent more of my adult life pregnant then not. This may be our last baby and the thought of never being pregnant again makes me sad. I love the bond that I have with that sweet little spirit who is still so close to our Heavenly Father. I feel all of their little wiggles and hiccups before anyone else. I love that connection. There is nothing quite like it on earth. Today I have taken a little bit of time with each of little boys snuggling on the couch. I thought about the time that I spent bonding with them, which seems like just a few months ago but really it’s been years. I will never forget how special this time has been for me. There is such a different feeling knowing that I have a little girl waiting to come and be a part of our family. Its such a surreal feeling to know this could be the end. I am still very excited for tomorrow to come but I am really trying to enjoy my last few hours of having a tiny little life inside on me.

3 comments:

  1. I really like this post, and I love that you are writing down all your feelings as you get closer and closer! I wish I had done a better job of that for myself. I've been meaning to tell you that I'm really sorry I missed your shower, I was in Utah for a wedding. I really wanted to be there! But I've been thinking about you lots this week and I'm so excited for you to meet little Leena tomorrow!!! Congrats early!

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  2. What a special moment in your life! I am so excited for your lovely little family!

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  3. I know that Leena has already been born...but let me tell ya a little secret...I don't think that there has been a time in my "mother" life that I haven't wanted to have "just one more baby". I remember talking to my grandma who had seven children, and listening to her tell me the exact same sentiment. Motherhood is a gift...that we also give ourselves. Challenging?...for sure....but the little gifts that present themselves along the way make it all worth it. Congrats on Miss Leena. She is super cute....just like I remember you looking when you were tiny.

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